During the summers before 11th and 12th grades, I had to read numerous books and keep a reflective journal focused on my readings. Some of these journal entries are provided below.
Article from Time [entry dated August 10, 1996]
The Bell Jar by Sylvia Plath was first published in the United States in 1971. Interesting, because Plath died in 1963. The following article from Time magazine (April 18, 1994; Page 80) gives some background information about the author.
Janet Malcolm explores the lurid obsession with Sylvia Plath
By Andrea Sachs
Just because connoisseurs of poetry rarely read the National Enquirer doesn't mean they don't crave sensationalism. Witness the enduring legend of Sylvia Plath more than three decades after the writer's death. Certainly Plath's reputation as a fierce, accomplished poet has endured, but it is the shocking story of her life that really fascinates the literary public.
The details of Plath's suicide have assumed totemic significance for a cult of followers who regard her as St. Sylvia, the high priestess of suffering. On Feb. 11, 1963, she put her head in a gas oven in her London apartment as her two children, for whom she had left glasses of milk and a plate of bread and butter, slept in a nearby bedroom. Plath's husband Ted Hughes, a great poet who is now England's poet laureate, had left her months earlier for another woman. Before her death, few had ever heard of the 30-year-old American expatriate. But with the posthumous publication of Ariel, the bleak, violent yet beautiful volume of poetry she produced in the last months of her life, Plath's legend was born. In 1971 The Bell Jar, Plath's novel about her nervous breakdown during college, was published in America and became wildly popular.
If Sylvia Plath were alive today, she would be a venerable 61 years old. (Given the shift in the times, she also might be on Prozac.) But the poet who dies young is remembered in her youthful glory, a literary James Dean. Attention to Plath's life has been paid in inverse proportion to its brevity: five exhaustive biographies have been written about her. In addition, everyone who ever had lunch with Plath has seemingly felt compelled to write a memoir.
Unlike Plath, who found eternal youth, those who shared her life have had to weather the ravages of time, not to mention public opprobrium. Janet Malcolm, the latest writer to mine the Plath myth, compares the spread of gossip about the poet to "an oil spill in the devastation it wreaked among Plath's survivors, who to this day are like birds covered with black ooze." No one has been more fouled by the Plath oobleck than Hughes. In The Silent Woman: Sylvia Plath and Ted Hughes (Knopf; 208 pages; $23), Malcolm chronicles how generations of feminist writers have reviled Hughes for abandoning Plath and for tampering with and even destroying her work. (Hughes' reputation has not been helped by the fact that the woman for whom he left Plath, in a macabre deja vu, also gassed herself to death.)
Malcolm is sympathetic to Hughes, although he nonetheless comes off poorly in her book, willing to sell the American rights to The Bell Jar, which Plath had published under a pseudonym in England and which her mother did not want to be published in the U.S., in order to buy a third home. Where Plath is concerned, Hughes plays two roles that are hopelessly in conflict: he is both Plath's faithless husband and also her literary executor, so whenever a writer is denied access to Plath's papers, he or she can accuse Hughes of trying to cover up his own guilt. He grants no interviews and has written no memoir. Instead of Hughes, Plath's biographers have had to deal with Olwyn, Hughes' cranky older sister, who has served as a combative intermediary for her absent brother. Malcolm gets no closer to the poet than the other Plathian detectives who have stalked him. She is reduced to lurking around the outside of his British home, uninvited.
The tug-of-war between the Hugheses and the Plath scholars gives Malcolm the opportunity to explore the biographer's craft, which she likens to the work of "the professional burglar, breaking into a house." The book also represents Malcolm's answer to her own critics. Last June a jury in a widely publicized libel suit by psychoanalyst Jeffrey Masson found that Malcolm had fabricated quotations in a series of articles about him for the New Yorker. Despite her setback in court, Malcolm remains undeterred; The Silent Woman appeared in the New Yorker shortly after the trial, and Malcolm has not muted her intense, opinionated style.
Malcolm has a tendency to hog the stage; her sense of identification with Plath as another literary young lady of the 1950s is so often trumpeted that readers not interested in purchasing an autobiography of Janet Malcolm should consider themselves forewarned. But when Malcolm remembers her subject, she is insightful. Plath's appeal, suggests Malcolm, lies in her "not-niceness," her willingness to say what many feel but dare not articulate. Plath "was able--she had been elected--to confront what most of the rest of us fearfully shrank from," writes Malcolm. Furthermore, Plath gave voice to feminism before its time, instinctively distrusting the domestic limitations imposed on women of her generation.
Too many biographies later, the memory of Sylvia Plath has worn thin, like a game of telephone where the original message has been lost in the retelling. When an acquaintance of Plath's confides in The Silent Woman that she has gone to a hypnotist to retrieve further memories of the poet, the reader understands that it is time to go back to the source. The true, meaningful record of this poet is near at hand--in her writings. It is there that Sylvia Plath--harsh, brilliant, astonishing--may be found.
Disturbing [entry dated August 11, 1996]
The Bell Jar by Sylvia Plath is a serious downer. The story starts out happy enough, with a girl in New York living the high life. However, there appear to be warning signs of what is to come.
I really had to struggle to read the book because of its negative undertones. It would be hard for me, when I would come home in a good mood, to then pick up a book that I new would bring me back down. I can't imagine what it would have been like if I were in a crummy mood, by chance, and then would have had to read The Bell Jar. It was difficult enough as it was. The shock treatments stunned me as well. I did not know what their purpose would be, so I did some research and found the following article in The World Book Medical Encyclopedia, page 300:
Electroconvulsive therapy, or ECT, is the passage of an electric current through the brain to induce alterations in the brain's electrical activity. It is sometimes called either shock or electroshock therapy. ECT is sometimes used to treat acute depression, but is increasingly being replaced by drug therapy. When an ECT is applied, muscle-relaxant drugs are used to prevent injury to the patient during the convulsion that follows the electroshock; a general anesthetic is also normally applied so that the patient does not perceive the seizure. Recent advances in ECT, including the use of lower voltages and the application of the shock to only one side of the brain, have made ECT both safer and more effective.
Philosophy of Life [entry dated August 18, 1996]
It is hard for me to accept that Ester could get to the point that she would want to kill herself without anyone noticing. Of course, I will admit to unawareness as to the mentality of a suicidal person because I do not comprehend how anyone could get to the point where life is not worth living. I am in the middle of three-a-day football practices. The hardest two weeks of the year are right now. If anyone should be depressed, it should be me, right? No! I am probably happier now than any other time of the year. Sure, I am on the brink of physical exhaustion, and I am beaten and bruised badly, and I am getting only seven hours of sleep a night. I should be whining about how hard these practices are. No! I realize that in the course of life, there will be ups and downs. I can not expect the greatest day in my life to multiply itself thirty thousand times over to give me eighty-two years full of great days. Nor, on the other hand do I expect eighty-two years of my life to be filled with thirty thousand of the crummiest days that I ever had to suffer through. In order for the best day in my life to be that, I have to accept the worst day in my life as well. I realize that, and I think that if people stopped to look at it that way others would see that too.
Also, I do not know if tomorrow will be the greatest day in my life, or the worst, or somewhere in between. That's one thing I love about life; I never know what is coming next. I may meet every person I ever knew tomorrow, and my day would be filled with joy. Or I may break my neck at football practice tomorrow, and be a quadriplegic the rest of my life. Or I may make twelve tackles in a row and clinch the starting defensive end job. Or, I might drop seventy-three passes tomorrow and lose my starting tight end job. I don't know. But I am going to try my hardest to make tomorrow the best day I can. If Ester would have used that philosophy, she most definitely would be a happier and saner person.